You know I believe, that we are meant to be

Saturday, 28 February 2009

You Deserve This.
hey girl. you've been saying alot, and really alot.
im beginning to think you're sucha useless.
you boast around bout your boyfriend.
going around telling bout me.
let's stop talking to each other since your boyfriend told u so.
please remember, whatever happens, I Dont Care.

i miss kite flying with Baby! I wanna go again but i dont know when. it seems like my weekends are not enough. im going Bugis later then off to idk where. Fiqq and Sapao off to KL, abandoning me! what the hellszxzx. FIQQ, SMUGGLE IN SOMETHING UNTUK AKU KAY! :D its been a week i've not quarrel with Baby. maybe its because of that day's incident. Im really afraid of losing him, reallyreally. so therefore, im trying real hard not to pick a fight. okay B, i miss you alot. its been like two days? HAHA, kay ily uh!

i had a tiff with my mum yesterday over Smoking. she told me to stop. and yeah, more texts between me and here. lastly she texted me really nice way cause she was afraid i would run away from home again. >.<>

kaykay, i think my classmates are the best. this week of school was really awesome siaaa. Monday- i skipped Malay enrichment.

Tuesday- had nothing.

Wednesday- absent, i overslept.

Thursday- Heats, Dance comm practice, Cca.

Friday- Nothing.

this week, on one of the day, my classmate actually put the big green dustbin in the classroom! suprisingly, my co tutor who was having her lessons didnt realize it was inside the class. we were giggling all the way. then Jaaziel and JLPX kept on shouting ** name. HAHA, which i was also laughing at. There's actually alot uh. but this one is the best i think? kay done. i wanna bathe now.

Taking care everyone~

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

I wanted You.

i dont want to go on Hiatus. i miss blogging.

All i want was him to stay here with me forever.

I wanted him to be there for me forever.

I wanted him to show me the meaning of everything.

I wanted him to change me for the good.

lastly, i want him forever.

cause i miss him and i know i love him!

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

Baby, Forever.

HIATUS.

);

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Sunday, 22 February 2009

Second.

Crashed.

he really change
i accept it );

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

"Maybe its time I change.."

no more the sweet boyfriend i used to have.

dont u think i deserve this?

yeah. im left alone.

left by you after u said that.

followed by a stranger.

walked along dark streets.

i dont even know where i was heading to.

crying and texting u.

almost knock down at three traffics.

why didnt i got knock down?

life would be easier for u. u dont have to worry nomore.

u dont have to give in anymore.

im always thinking of my feeling instead of yours right?

but even after everything, im still the stubborn one right?

imissyouBaby);

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Saturday, 21 February 2009

All i do never seems enough for you.

i realized i have to treasure every single soul.
especially those who cares for me.
even the fights/nags/misunderstanding that happens.
its just a test for me to go through it.

i shall be happy.

i must start cheering up.

though almost every single day of mine ends with tears.

its something i must learn to control.

managing my feelings. it aint the right time now.

btw, Happy 7-teen Birthday to the cheerful babe, Asiqah!

may you have an enjoyable day!

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Thursday, 19 February 2009

YOUR WEAKNESS.

watch your words.

dont think far cause its just the beginning.

see for yourself, have a dream.

dont think of yourself.

i just love the times when Baby talks to me. his advices are always the best. he made me promised him to go school unless im really sick. and of course, go to school for the sake of O's not teachers. he always give me opinions and anything at his point of view towards any matters that i have. he brings me to wherever i want and tries to make every outing with him a time when he could make me smile always. i should be greatful to have a BoyFriend like him who really cares and love me. CARE in a way not only care for me, but also care for my future, how thoughful he is! though at times i know im annoying plus irritating. but i know he still love me. & i know i love him too! thanks Baby for caring alot for me! i love you okay~

okay, the reason i posted about him is, i just feel like thanking him cause he sacrificed alot of his time for me. i admit im kinda feeling down this days. im really stressful over school tests/homeworks. i know i must not push myself to the limit till i get sick always. im just upset. i just dont want to show that im upset. through blogging, its just a way for me to express out everything. though it doesnt really help me forget all those stuffs. i've been trying really hard to follow the flow. but i just cant. even im on the verge of breaking down all the times, giving up almost everytime, i realized i shouldnt. okay, sorry to Baby cause i didnt tell him im feeling down. i must learn how to manage my problems myself i guess. i just feel like crying );

whisper to me how can i move on.

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Wednesday, 18 February 2009

Playing On Repeat.

its my second day off for the week. im sick again. my nose is like tapwater. my cough is so bad. my flu is really killing me. im having common test like today. and im absent from school. I guess my body immune system is really down =/

i've missed alot for lessons but at least i should be happy that i scored 13/15 for Maths. I did the paper like only 10 minutes cause i was rushing to do Malay paper and end it fast. okay, thanks to my brain :D

thank you to my dearest Baby for accompanying me to the doctor yesterday. he cant accompany me today since he's working. i miss him alot. i get to meet him only on Friday cause he might be working tomorrow and i have cca! B! i'lll miss you alot you know?

im done, i wanna eat and go to the doctor again take MC. I shall go study today with my BestFriends. i better get well soon today since i need to take tests.

I MISS [M]UHD [K]HAIRI !

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Saturday, 14 February 2009

HAPPY VALENTINES!

at last my weekends are here. at least i get to chill-ex abit. school is very tiring and i have lots of homeworks! since my weekends are here, i have decided to celebrate Valentines day with my love ones. of course my BestFriends and BoyFriend! certainly it would be a great one. im just only done with my Valentines gifts for them, i made a windmill(i hope it will move when theres wind). forget it, whatever it is, its the thought that counts :D

i need to update my cupboards with new clothes like now. i want to get a new everlast shoes for myself! but i know it might not happen. i need to start saving.

okay, i really want to post alot of things. but im just too tired. very tired after schools and so on. i shall end here cause its 3.01am. BoyFriend is asleeeeeep ); (retribution- since i left him alone on the phone without hanging up cause i accidentally fell asleep. BUT, my cute BoyFriend of mine actually laugh at me when i was asleep-.-")

goodnight!

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Thursday, 12 February 2009

GROW UP KIDS.

you've got to learn the term 'grow up'.

well this week, its been a great one for me with love ones.

though it was busy and rushing week, i enjoyed definitely.

exceptional of today, the twelve February.

well, this upsets me.

1) Friendships o.0

2) zero for summary(when i have an mc)

3) sprain my ankle

4) lost of necklace

5) stud gone

6) cant meet B.

7) no 6 equals no movies

theres more actually.

today is the best((((((: but i sprain my ankle. thats all.

i think certain teachers are nice to talk with, really.

okay goodnights.

i need to sleep, there's school tomorrow.

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Wednesday, 11 February 2009

CRASHED.

i sacrificed alot.
i love my only one, Ayie((((:

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Monday, 9 February 2009

Perhaps, ur promises are meant to be broken.

thanks for a million time. all the promises, u may blurt it out now.

cause whatever it is, i dont trust you anymore.

i cant, try gaining it back. its super difficult.

try arguing with me cause the fact you're the one troubling.

Tc girl.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING I GAIN IN LIFE.

thanks to everyone.

be it good/bad, im thankful for the fcuk up life.

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Sunday, 8 February 2009

IM UPSET/DEPRESSED.

how does it feels like when you have to let go of someone you love alot. like really alot. more than anything. i dont put high hopes. but its just TRUST. i trust him to take care of me. i trust him to be with me thru my ups and downs. why couldnt you just believe me? instead, all you did was shoot harsh words to me. every single pasts. everything thats redundant. you dont even let me say my words. the next moment after shouting/screaming at me, you'll start to nag again. over the pasts. come on, the pasts is already over. im changing. in fact, i changed! i did for the sake of you, and everyone else who cared for me. you must not expect things to turn out the bestest way if its already going through step by step correctly. you have to know that sometimes, things doesnt turn out the way it wants. you musnt have said those words just to make me very upset. i was shure hurt over those things. i cried almost the whole time when what you said played through my mind. you said i get everything i want but i dont appreaciate, do you really get me anything that i want? definitely NO. it was a minor mistake. like what he says " if a drug addict could be given a chance, why not me?" yeah true. they do worst mistakes. this was just a minor mistake yet you reacted so bad that im all alone now typing feeling so stupid yet unloved by you. i feel abandoned by all of you. yeahyeah, everyone loves them more than me. yeahyeah, their much cleverer than me. so what? theres always a good thing behind all this bad things. and i dont want to spit out any single thing about them to you, in case you'll get hurt for putting overly too high hopes on them since they're way much better than me. i dont mind cause i know theres other people who cares for me. you said you love me, you said you care for me. but do you even really meant those words you said? do you? i dont ask anything for you just except for, stop comparing me with the rest. i had enough of this. and btw, he's way much better than him.

i shall end my post here. i shall stop posting until everything gets fine.

im totally hurt. im very upset. i feel stupid and i want to cry.

i just need a lending shoulders and listening ears.

thanks for those who adviced me. ily!

b, no matter what happens.

i'll stick to you.

take care of Sunshine just like how you took care of me.

give me time, we'll see how things goes.

im just happy that you took care of me and wipe my tears.

you tried many ways to make me stop shedding tears.

you're the best, ily!

);

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Saturday, 7 February 2009

WTF.

Sometimes, I wonder when this times of suffer is going to end. I really hope it'll be soon. but I know its still long enough. I still have months to go. I dont even think of passing at all. All i could feel was a time of failure. Failure, its always on my mind. I dont know how I can change it. I realize I did well for N's. but I dont even think I'll do well for O's. With the results shown. I'll definitely be one of the failures. I just hope that Im one of the lucky ones. I've totally lost interest in studying. But what can I do? I can only study hard now till O's are over. And cry many times again waiting for results. ~ im continuing and not giving up for the sake of Family and Baby.

hopefully i gets well this weekend. and hopefully i'll return back to school on Monday. I miss 5a2. im trying to make an effort to pass my common tests. and if i make it, i'll definitely continue for better grades. pray hard for me then.

at least i have someone to stay with me thru my need. Family, Baby!, NineBestFriends and 5a2(((:

okaey im done ranting.

goodbye~

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Friday, 6 February 2009

im sorry for giving you troubles.
sorry for making you ran after me.
sorry for the stubborn times i gave.
you treat me with lots of care.
trying every moment not to spoil the day.
making me happy was your everyday mission.
i thank you for taking good care of me when im sick.
lastly, i thank you for the love you gave me.
Happy Second Monthsary to you! ily Baby :D

okaey, im not in school for four days already. im really sick. and its getting on my nerve. this week was not really a fantastic week. i had a tiff with B for two nights. i shouldnt elaborate here cause some people wanna be busybody and then pass to another people's ear. then spread rubbish. past 12 midnight last night, "not so happy 2nd monthsary" was what B thinks. but ended up, things got better. i didnt want to think about school. so get it why i was pissed off this days? plus im having my fcuking red flag. thats the bitch uh cannnn~

im meeting B later to see the doctor! and Yas is accompanying me. im meeting Sheila tomorrow since the two GayBoys are up to something. and meeting the rest for kite flying! omgomg, i cant wait! i love Saturdayyyyys :D

anyways, i'll be joining Kak Aiz dance crew for dancing, and i'll get to meet those i miss. especially Kak Faaz and Kak Yanaaaa~

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Wednesday, 4 February 2009

For the sake of my Baby, im updatting :D

Muhd Khairi Bin Khamari,
Get well soon okaey baby? dont think too much. see, now you're down with fever/running nose/coughs. sooooooooo, u better get well soon cause i miss your craps. and i miss you, certainly.

im not in school from Monday to Tuesday.
my body is scaring me off. my phlegm keeps on stuck and cant get out. irritating~ mummy have been pestering me to go for blood test since i've been falling sick frequently since Jan o9. but it freaks me out more. haha, okaey this is lame uhs. i've been kind of studying for common tests. i really need to put in double effort so i can hit my targets. i need to get back to school really soon. and study!

B is working on Friday equals i cant meet him! its the second monthsary siaaaaa); but nevermind. since he and Fiqq planned for a surprise double-date with Sheila to i-dont-know-where~ on Saturday. This two Gayboys just refuse to tell me where we're going. even after giving excuses like i cant go out if you're not telling me where we're going and i need to know. HAHA, okaey, my excuses sucks. forget it, i still love them but Muhd Khairi more ehhhhh~

till here, my Baby's asleeeeeep. i need to get sleep too :D
goodbye and nights!

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥

Monday, 2 February 2009

Taking your love ones for granted;

i wouldnt even care if i lost any of you cause i know im still able to survive. thanks for a million for all your past care & concerns. it doesnt last to me at all.

Reflections for the past weeks. everything seems to be only okaey. but its much better with 5a2 cause they're my awesome classmate. didnt think that kids nowadays loves to act big. HAHA.
rubbish, fancy fighting just wanna be popular kids in the school. thats why so immatured.

im enjoying my weekends with whoever i can go out with, especially B. (((((((: I actually studied and went to fly kite with and picnic with them. B, YAS, FIQQ, SHEILA. i dont even care if theres only few people.

okaey a piece of note here;
i wont be updatting much. anything can text me up to know how am i.
take care, goodbye!

waittttttt ,
i love [M]uhd [K]hairi.
& he's going RP.
all the best okaey baby.
take care and im always here for you!
((((((:

♥L i s h [A] y i E♥