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Sunday, 8 February 2009

IM UPSET/DEPRESSED.

how does it feels like when you have to let go of someone you love alot. like really alot. more than anything. i dont put high hopes. but its just TRUST. i trust him to take care of me. i trust him to be with me thru my ups and downs. why couldnt you just believe me? instead, all you did was shoot harsh words to me. every single pasts. everything thats redundant. you dont even let me say my words. the next moment after shouting/screaming at me, you'll start to nag again. over the pasts. come on, the pasts is already over. im changing. in fact, i changed! i did for the sake of you, and everyone else who cared for me. you must not expect things to turn out the bestest way if its already going through step by step correctly. you have to know that sometimes, things doesnt turn out the way it wants. you musnt have said those words just to make me very upset. i was shure hurt over those things. i cried almost the whole time when what you said played through my mind. you said i get everything i want but i dont appreaciate, do you really get me anything that i want? definitely NO. it was a minor mistake. like what he says " if a drug addict could be given a chance, why not me?" yeah true. they do worst mistakes. this was just a minor mistake yet you reacted so bad that im all alone now typing feeling so stupid yet unloved by you. i feel abandoned by all of you. yeahyeah, everyone loves them more than me. yeahyeah, their much cleverer than me. so what? theres always a good thing behind all this bad things. and i dont want to spit out any single thing about them to you, in case you'll get hurt for putting overly too high hopes on them since they're way much better than me. i dont mind cause i know theres other people who cares for me. you said you love me, you said you care for me. but do you even really meant those words you said? do you? i dont ask anything for you just except for, stop comparing me with the rest. i had enough of this. and btw, he's way much better than him.

i shall end my post here. i shall stop posting until everything gets fine.

im totally hurt. im very upset. i feel stupid and i want to cry.

i just need a lending shoulders and listening ears.

thanks for those who adviced me. ily!

b, no matter what happens.

i'll stick to you.

take care of Sunshine just like how you took care of me.

give me time, we'll see how things goes.

im just happy that you took care of me and wipe my tears.

you tried many ways to make me stop shedding tears.

you're the best, ily!

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