Lisha.

2009-04-10T04:08:00.000+08:00

I've moved to www.lisha-sixthtwelve.blogspot.com for certain reasons.

Please relink, thanks.

2009-04-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

(MIDDLE FINGER)

FCUK YOU BITCH.

YOU SUCKS TO THE MAX.

im going on Hiatus for certain reasons.

Bye.

2009-04-08T00:00:00.004+08:00

Find a new way Bitch.

At times, u feel like fcuking her upside down till she dies with no words to say. Maybe its really getting on my nerve already. It piss me off most of the times. but no matter what, i am really trying real hard to get over it. cause she's just nothing. for all i know, she did bitch bout me before. try harder to bitch bout me to other people other than my bestfriends bitch!

I broke mum's glass cover just now. and she scolded me with tons of words. alright, i admit its my fault. and yet she still nagged at me alot of stuffs which piss me off. off i went inside my room and cry while talking to baby. there was silence a few times. but Baby made me talk. Haha, love ya B!

Babygirls, i miss you peeeepos. when are we going out for an outing together as a clique again? i missmissmissmissmiss you peeps. Our outing is always not a full Babygirls clique); hurry plan out okay. and not only i miss you girls. i miss my NineBestFriends~~ supposingly 8 exclude BoyFriend!

this week is gonna be a busy week though. im having my CIP tomorrow. I cant wait to visit the autistic kids. its first time im gonna experience it. Im having cca on thursday. and I have plans after that. and i'll surely have homeworks/revisions to do since Friday theres no school and Science Practical is like next week. im gonna (-). i dont wanna type it or else B will sure (-). HEEEEEEEEEHHHHHS.

kay, im excited for one of my babyGirl. She's turning Seventeen in 23.5 hours time~ Haha, YASMEEN BTE FAIZAL~~~~~~

you dont sense what i feel & you should know im sensitive. but whatever it is, we'll still be okay if we're together.

2009-04-06T00:56:00.004+08:00

Sixth, Muhd Khairi

his love always make my day bright just like how the sun brightens the Earth. his love and care was definitely awesome. though we did use harsh words in times of anger and making me cry unintentionally, i always know that you never wanna do it. you're always here for me trying to make things better at your very best. at times, i know you felt like giving up too right? but you perservered still not to give up but instead, trying to calm yourself and cool myself down too. i've never seen someone ~~begging~~persuading me over something. crying trying to make things at its very best. Instead, im thankful, yes very thankful to have someone very protective. yet understanding. Im sorry for being stubborn not listening to you most of the times. i never wanna lose someone who taught me to be appreciative and patience towards everything. thank you, happy Fourth monthsary & ily. :D

&i hope you enjoyed watching the video(:

2009-04-05T02:14:00.004+08:00

Thank you for leaving me a tag.
i will relink and upload pictures soon.
im currently in a down mode.
your understanding is what i want.
Thank you, and sorry!

Baby is asleep. i promised him to sleep soon.
alrights, nights.

2009-04-05T01:40:00.003+08:00

Lost.

im going thru a really black patch of life. I thought that noone is understanding for me. There is a part of me. That feels I am different from everyone else. Something that I can't quite see, Something that I can't quite feel, Something so unreal. But this 'thing' is always there, This 'thing' with others, I will never share. So I push it to the back of my mind, All the thoughts of boys and clothes and make-up, it is hiding behind. Sometimes, when I have almost forgotten, It comes back with such ferocity, Angry and unforgiving. I feel so lost and sad, Whatever caused this feeling must have been so horrible and bad. A lost memory or something else, I'll never know, whatever it is, I know for sure, I can never let this feeling show. but, i've show it. the feeling is unbearable. it almost affected me. but maybe nomore. I felt like im the worst stubborn kid afterall. i felt like i took Him for granted. It wasn't easy for me. i tried many ways to calm myself down. walking that long distance, waiting for him. I know he would be there for me. a smallest thing could be an issue just the next moment. he almost gave up. he tried doing stuff which aint right because of his anger. at times, i felt like giving up on him. not because of him but myself. i know he has given in alot. but i realized i shouldnt cause noone ever cares for me like he does. i should be lucky. i should be greatful. To him, im sorry. im really sorry. i still love you Muhd Khairi ):

To Yasmeen,
im sorry that you're the middle person. its most of the times when we're together there's something happen till u hafta part with us. i know u understand us. i know u really cared for us. you tried to make every outing as lovely as possible with your chitchattings and jokes. you'll get sick one day with our quarrels. whatever it is, im very sorry to you for maybe troubling you.

2009-04-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

BITCH.

have your originalities bitch. bitch.bitch. you're just super annoying in my eyes. go get a life.

im at cousin house. we're bored so watched hsm3. Lameeeeee, i know. i've got malay homeworks to be done by next Monday. a diedie must do. i miss Baby alot. seems like things arent going on well for him or maybe us. i think school is okay so far. Hurry O's. end faster cannnnnn? my practicals are in 2 weeks time and i've yet to memorize the notes. im gonna fail.

Nights, going home now.

2009-04-03T00:46:00.002+08:00

You're the Bitch.

i think i've got the i'll-forget-without-boyfriend disease. hahahahahaaa. i changed my kappy password and i forgot the next day. meet Baby,i actually remembered it. ass right? -.-

my act cute Boyfriend is back from his camp. Its so good to hear his voice. but he's falling sick soon maybe? Get well soon Baby! we've yet to go for a confirmed planned outing. Let's go sooooooon~

My sore eyes are recovering. but it still gives me problem. idk wheres my fcuking spec. &maybe im the happiest kid for a moment. cause i've gotten the mobile broadband which i hafta pay $20 every month. Lame i know. maybe im tooooo outdated~ fcuk care uh~~~~

& the video which i did for Baby - he knows already. he watched it, fcuking paiseyh. :D

okay, bye. i wanna chat with Baby!

2009-04-01T11:08:00.002+08:00

Boooo, my pretty boy is away for camp~
im not in school today cause im having Sore Eyes.
but, i hafta meet Asiqah later on to go for some malay competition at 1.30.
Im happy cause i dont get fooled on April Fool. :D
i still miss Baby): kay thats it, meet u on Friday kay B!

2009-03-28T23:46:00.003+08:00

CHEW CHAMPS.
i soooooo love Chew House.
unexpectedly, we got Champion for both primary/secondary.
& definitely, i love Chew dancers! and those in the commitee,
though there were a lil tiff that was resolved seconds later.
rock on Chew House & coooookie Monstaaaar.
will upload pictures soon((((((:

Hell Term2week2.
it sucks cause its almost everyday a tiff with Baby. almost everyday. However, im a good girl cause i've completed my homeworks and i actually did extra. Blame me for doing the wrong thing for two questions. 0.o

alright, i aint feeling good here. im having cramps. and it really hurts me. i just cant bear with it. thats all. will upload pictures really soon. Nights everyone. & will relinked soon babes.

still loving you as always

2009-03-24T20:17:00.001+08:00

Hello,

kay Bye.
i wanna do my homework.
Im currently with Baby&Yas.
& chatting with Tot.
excited betol tau dier nak meet Baby!
Hahahahahahha~

2009-03-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

Like Ink drip.

Im Fcuking lazy to update but i feel like updatting. So here I am. Im a computer idiot. Figure it out what I mean. my homeworks are like stacking up siaaaaaa. Im still not done yet. Fcuk sia. Nbcb schooooool~ the homeworks are like meant for One month instead of a week. I cant even have my days of sleeping. Okay, im prepared to get scolding :D

I dont wish to elaborate bout things that happened this few days with BoyFriend. Whatever it is, Im sorry cause I know where I stand now.

Term 2 is here, equals Malay O's coming. OmFg. hopefully i gt an A1 so i dont have to retake it. damn it. grrrrrrrrr. Wish me luck for term 2 school. Suckkkkkkks uh~

Kay i miss my BoyFriend.
Im sorrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy~

2009-03-17T12:39:00.002+08:00

Everyday of Life.

Finally~ Zoo that day was awesome with B&siblings,Yas,Fiqq & my niece(: i so love my niece though she's kinda stubborn at times. what u expect? Two years old only. It was Sunny at the beginning but it eventually rains at around Four. My niece fell asleep on her pram but still the journey continues covering other half of the trek and also to procede to the exit since its going to close.

Yesterday was tiring though i didnt do alot. went to B's house to slack. Shairah is back with us since she broke up with his bf. Im happy for her cause at least she didnt gets hurt by getting slaps for free. His ex is sucha control freak towards her. She cant even contact her BestFriends. like wtf kind of guy is he? okay enough of that jerk. At night, they carried stuffs from Jan's house to B's house. its kind of alot. Kay wait, Jan's cats are scary. Really scary~That JanPantat always say this cat wont disturb/bite. HAHA. she kept on saying the same thing when any cats come closer and i start to like fidgit. then they send the stuffs backs to B's house. then we headed to Jalan Kayu for dinner. I didnt eat cause i dont feel like eating. Then headed home. While waiting for B's call, i fell aleep. Haha, sorrrryyyyyyy Babyyyyy!

Today im studying with Fizah at Mac ecp then go riding with B's bike. omg, i cant wait. &Pathetic, none of them are awake now. ):

2009-03-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

Even when I pour my heart out to you,I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.
Just because i smile on the outside doesnt mean that i am on the inside.

Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts.

I've got nothing to say, really. I wanted to blog so much but i just dont want now. Im really down. I felt i lost you but no i didnt. I dont fell any sense of you. I tried to calm things down but you hide things. sometimes i feel its useless having myself here, specially for you. But maybe im not. Cause i know i have my own limitations. I still have my patience high above. I still care/love you. the thing is i just dont get what you want now. I miss you, really i do. Please smile for me and dont take things whatever happens at home so seriously. I am really terribly feeling of losing you. I dont want you to change anymore. I dont want you to be this way. Please? ):

2009-03-15T19:47:00.002+08:00

He's just so,

Zoo was fun. Lazy to elaborate. im currently with Fizah and Yas. playing pool later. im having dance tomorrow. okay done. I miss Baby.

B, if you're reading this please dont be so upset/angry. pleaseplease smile. i dont like seeing you this way. things happen for a few reasons. smile kay? imy. ):

2009-03-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

Update about Zoo tomorrow.

im dead tired.

Cannot wait to meet Babyyyyyyyyy besok((:

& also Fizahhhhhhh for study plus lappy dates together with Fiqq & Yas.

Kay Nights.

2009-03-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

To be Love is something.

Im back. I visited Granny just now. she looks better but still not in a really good condition. i really hopes she recover really soon. i pity my aunt who is her beloved youngest daughter cause she's getting married tomorrow. all i could see most of the time was her watery eyes. Whatever it is, to aunty Linda, be happy on your big day!

i met Baby just now. met Fiee, Yas & Fiqq. I cant wait for Zooooooo tomorrow :D

okay Nights. I miss Baby laaaaaaah~

2009-03-13T12:06:00.003+08:00

Dreaming Soul.

Haha. My week break is already here. but im sure not to be really happy/enjoying myself much. i've got stacks of homeworks to be done. Malay: 2 compos. 1 letter writing. 19 pages of bahasa. 2 article review. English: Holocaust :D . 1 situational writing. Chemistry: 3 sets of ws. Maths: Ace-learning. Papers. Social Studies: Essay. Literature: Tkam. just kill me now. it seems like fcuking alot. i havent include my dance practices/meetings yet. Im in mass/group dance. Thurs: im having class outing to Sentosa. Fri: Study date @ Changi T3 with Asiqah, Dean, Ash, Faridah. I hope shak would follow.

okaaaaaay. i want to get some of my homeworks done so that i have more time. At the same time waiting for Baby to meet me. He's like at Rp enrolling for school. Imisshim! Imisshim!

2009-03-12T15:18:00.003+08:00

Throw Your Frowns.

im a happppppyyyyyyyyy kid today. I am happy cause im happy. okay, i think i had the most hilarious time today in school. POD's had a death marching outside the level. we purposely make noise inside the class, screaming and shouting. cheering as an act for class race. Jaaziel and Pretty kept on shouting "GB girls, fall in now" or something. English today was okay. i didnt finish up my holocaust cause i fell asleep yesterday. I was very tired/stressed out thinking bout it. I give Malay a miss today cause none of my classmates going. give class race heats a miss since they cancelled it. paid my exam fees. and headed home with BimboooooShak~ okay, no more school. tomorow last day, Yayyyyy. im ending at 11.

im getting ready afterwards to go aunty house for lunch since im hungry. i didnt eat properly. then im visiting Gandma at cgh. im suppose to go SPH for meeting. but, i gave it a miss also since mummy ask me to go visit Grandma and since Dad is there -.- okay, i miss BoyFriend alot kay? didnt get to meet him today ):

Muhd Khairi~~~~~ imissyou. HAHA. kay bye Pantat!

2009-03-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

You're Still The Sweetest,

im almost done with Holocaust, the fcukshits. all thanks to B! i was struggling and yet to eat dinner. sooooooo, he helped me and i ate dinner! B, im sorrrrrry. still he's the best! headed home around NinePlus. Granny have yet to wake up. I really miss her. i hope she wakes up like now, please? Im having dance meeting tomorrow at school. and im going home after that. then head to SPH for meeting. I swear its gonna be a Fcuk one too. (HAHA, you wont know why) im irritated. not only me, my friends are too.

okay Bye, i wanna do my Malay homework since im having extra lesson from my favourite, Cikgu Rahani! She made me have One for N's. why not One for O's? Haha, over confident. kay, shits, i still have Situational writing. My One week break is almost here. almost. woooohoooo~ i cant wait. I want to go zooo, Sentosaaaaaaa. & durh, REVISIONS. fcukcare sia. I want to pass Chemistry/Geography with rainbow colours cannnnnnnnnnn? Please, please, please!

Bye, Muhd Khairi, hury text me((((((:

2009-03-11T19:23:00.002+08:00

Leaning Back.

wondering who's at fault. i wasnt even saying that its wrong. but u said i said that. yeah, im not talking to B now over something idk. i just dont wanna say anything. kay?

im at mac now. i need to do my project. B went to cut his hair. Yas is reading. ohh yes! my cousin from Scotland is here((((: okay i've not mood for anything. Nights.

2009-03-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

(BoyFriend edited this!)

Close Your Eyes.

Schoooooooool? Fcuk it. I just want O's to end soon-neh! Goodbye.
im busy with powerpoints );

i visited Grandma just now in ICU. her face seems to be so different. i felt so trashed seeing many tubes. the sad thing was. when i was in there alone with her, she was asleep. i dont know if she realize i was there. my only grandma left. Grandma, take care cause i love you.

im with Baby&Yas, Jan&Su now. im almost done with my Malay homeworks. powerpoints not yet done. arghhhh, im stucked. okay, i shall not waste time now.
& yeah, i hafta to pay for O's fees tomorrow. -.-"

i love Khairi Anak Khamari Penguin kay?
:D

2009-03-09T09:10:00.002+08:00

Its 9.10AM, im still at home.

i decided to go school late.

at least i help brother in his maths.

okay bye. im off to schoooool~

2009-03-08T20:21:00.001+08:00

Keep You Forever.

blame my mood swing for posting this. i really dont know whats wrong. i am troubled. i am sad. but i just dont know whats bothering. the moment before im fine but next moment, im crushed/crashed. its just difficult to smile. i've lots to do but it just seems that time isnt enough for me. i do regret but its useless to think about it. all i hafta do is like Move On. lets have enough talking bout school in my blog. i just hate school. remember that im going for the sake of O's. The big major O. i shall ignore them since im ignored. its better to go alone in school. i want to be left out. i shall show that its all what i can do. its always, Forever, enough with my shaky NineBestFriends. and of course, broken family. they give me everything i need all the time. Biggest mistake.

2009-03-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

Once Again, Your Mistake.

Happy Seventeen Birthday To Pretty Ler!

Happy Belated Eighteen nomore Eight to Kak Shanaaaaa! i miss you!

im suddenly having mood-swingggg =/

im really idk how to say. im sick of school at times. but when i think back, where do i go with just 'N' Cert? not far definitely. i shall school for the sake of them and to benefit myself. i may be suffering now but i may be not suffering as much as this fews years more down the road, right? like mummy said, suffer now but enjoy later. naybe she's right. i need to complete Holocaust/Earth Hour pwpt/Homeworks. im halfway done for Holocaust only.

last Friday's Malay lesson made me almost wanna tear a moment. Cikgu was showing video of patients who suffered from different illness and their hopes/wishes. It reminds me of my late grandma who was sick at that time. going dialysis three days a week. suffering this and that. It made realize how lucky i am. Cikgu also talked bout alot of stuffs which is almost the same as grandma. now, I realized i miss grandma like really alot. Not to forget, i must appreciate what i have now instead of asking this and that.

I remembered what Mrs Tng shared with the school. it was about appreaciating what we have. we always ask for what others have(most people in general). but we dont think of people who doesnt have, who cant afford. buying branded stuffs like nike shoes. there's people out there who are not wearing shoes. Worst, NO FEETS/LEGS. consider we're lucky. God loves us, know that.

Yesterday was a doooooom-ed day. i did Holocaust with Fizah's help. we both were figuring out alot of stuffs. we standby an online dictionary cause i swear there were alot of weird words int he research. we giggled and listen music since we really dont wanna get tensed especially me. B, Fiqq&Girlf was there. There were three lappy. Fizah was like LappyFreakoz. She used the lappy to camwhored with some pathetic face. Her actions are funny and i could laugh till i forgot to eat dinner. Since its 1000, we headed home. in bus 55, we were both kinda asleep. got down the bus, we both miss out next bus cause we were dizzy. took turns to vomit. blame 55 for jerk-ing many times during that 10 mins journey. when i vomit, I realized it was Gastric juice, wtf. thats what you'll get if you dont eat(: and the bus-stop, Fizah wanted to save the snail. so she tried to get it away from the stairs to the grass. wait, her intention was to save the snail and put it at the grass. but instead, she threw the snail and it accidentally hit a rock nearby. we laughed like hell. in Malay she said "instead of saving i accidentally killed it" then laughed like mad. Crazy Fizah-S. HAHA.

btw, thank you abang/mummy for getting a Compaq lappy for me(:

Nights, my eyes are alr closing.

i miss Baby!

2009-03-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

All Again For You.

Im damn fcuking idk how to say. i've got lots of projects/powerpoints to do. Damn Holocaust alone. plus Earth Hour powerpoint,

Hello. Fizah here. Lisha is away for the mean time.
So I'm here to blog on her behalf since she did the same favour for me like a few nano seconds ago. -.-
People... I know you guys kinda miss me right...
On a brighter note, my mom on the way to granny's house. Meaning I can go home a little while later. And the internet connection is kinda fuck-ed. PFFFT.
& guess what, I'm in love.... with this laptop.

Go Lisha Go! Jia you! Don't give up okay. Life was never easy. We the BFF pledged to support mummy in every step you take. OKAY. I gotta go home now. The journey is like one hour. BUIBUI :]

2009-03-03T21:18:00.002+08:00

Night Without Stars.

weekends are like over. it wasnt really a great one though cause it was raining. and mostly we were stuck at places. i met AdeqBalqis to Bugis. hang out and chilled. then headed home. Sunday was like raining heavily also. send my cousin to tuition then bought lunch and eat. night, headed home.

I realized my school morning assembly seem useful. as in during school's morning devotion. sometimes its irrelevant to Muslims. but most of the time, its relevant cause they talked bout self-values and appropriates stuffs. i really learnt alot. when i think back, why i dont think before doing anything. i just listen to the relevant speeches given but of course i dont follow them pray. Im always seen sleeping during their praying time. ;D

im happy at least though im having family matters now which i shouldnt elaborate here. im glad that i have Baby/BestFriends. at least i still have a place to cry and complain my problems. they are always the one giving me encouragement not to take things seriously and to move on not thinking bout it. im happy cause im not really hot-tempered now. cause im mostly heartbroken. but im always tempted to find trouble. but in the end, i still didnt find trouble or pick a fight.

okay im done. im meeting SyazBestf tomorrow! wheee~ and of course Baby, imissyouuuuuu~ hurry finish work and text me ((((((((:

2009-02-28T10:58:00.002+08:00

You Deserve This.
hey girl. you've been saying alot, and really alot.
im beginning to think you're sucha useless.
you boast around bout your boyfriend.
going around telling bout me.
let's stop talking to each other since your boyfriend told u so.
please remember, whatever happens, I Dont Care.

i miss kite flying with Baby! I wanna go again but i dont know when. it seems like my weekends are not enough. im going Bugis later then off to idk where. Fiqq and Sapao off to KL, abandoning me! what the hellszxzx. FIQQ, SMUGGLE IN SOMETHING UNTUK AKU KAY! :D its been a week i've not quarrel with Baby. maybe its because of that day's incident. Im really afraid of losing him, reallyreally. so therefore, im trying real hard not to pick a fight. okay B, i miss you alot. its been like two days? HAHA, kay ily uh!

i had a tiff with my mum yesterday over Smoking. she told me to stop. and yeah, more texts between me and here. lastly she texted me really nice way cause she was afraid i would run away from home again. >.<>

kaykay, i think my classmates are the best. this week of school was really awesome siaaa. Monday- i skipped Malay enrichment.

Tuesday- had nothing.

Wednesday- absent, i overslept.

Thursday- Heats, Dance comm practice, Cca.

Friday- Nothing.

this week, on one of the day, my classmate actually put the big green dustbin in the classroom! suprisingly, my co tutor who was having her lessons didnt realize it was inside the class. we were giggling all the way. then Jaaziel and JLPX kept on shouting ** name. HAHA, which i was also laughing at. There's actually alot uh. but this one is the best i think? kay done. i wanna bathe now.

Taking care everyone~

2009-02-25T15:13:00.002+08:00

I wanted You.

i dont want to go on Hiatus. i miss blogging.

All i want was him to stay here with me forever.

I wanted him to be there for me forever.

I wanted him to show me the meaning of everything.

I wanted him to change me for the good.

lastly, i want him forever.

cause i miss him and i know i love him!

2009-02-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

Baby, Forever.

HIATUS.

);

2009-02-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

Second.

Crashed.

he really change
i accept it );

2009-02-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

"Maybe its time I change.."

no more the sweet boyfriend i used to have.

dont u think i deserve this?

yeah. im left alone.

left by you after u said that.

followed by a stranger.

walked along dark streets.

i dont even know where i was heading to.

crying and texting u.

almost knock down at three traffics.

why didnt i got knock down?

life would be easier for u. u dont have to worry nomore.

u dont have to give in anymore.

im always thinking of my feeling instead of yours right?

but even after everything, im still the stubborn one right?

imissyouBaby);

2009-02-21T01:23:00.003+08:00

All i do never seems enough for you.

i realized i have to treasure every single soul.
especially those who cares for me.
even the fights/nags/misunderstanding that happens.
its just a test for me to go through it.

i shall be happy.

i must start cheering up.

though almost every single day of mine ends with tears.

its something i must learn to control.

managing my feelings. it aint the right time now.

btw, Happy 7-teen Birthday to the cheerful babe, Asiqah!

may you have an enjoyable day!

2009-02-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

YOUR WEAKNESS.

watch your words.

dont think far cause its just the beginning.

see for yourself, have a dream.

dont think of yourself.

i just love the times when Baby talks to me. his advices are always the best. he made me promised him to go school unless im really sick. and of course, go to school for the sake of O's not teachers. he always give me opinions and anything at his point of view towards any matters that i have. he brings me to wherever i want and tries to make every outing with him a time when he could make me smile always. i should be greatful to have a BoyFriend like him who really cares and love me. CARE in a way not only care for me, but also care for my future, how thoughful he is! though at times i know im annoying plus irritating. but i know he still love me. & i know i love him too! thanks Baby for caring alot for me! i love you okay~

okay, the reason i posted about him is, i just feel like thanking him cause he sacrificed alot of his time for me. i admit im kinda feeling down this days. im really stressful over school tests/homeworks. i know i must not push myself to the limit till i get sick always. im just upset. i just dont want to show that im upset. through blogging, its just a way for me to express out everything. though it doesnt really help me forget all those stuffs. i've been trying really hard to follow the flow. but i just cant. even im on the verge of breaking down all the times, giving up almost everytime, i realized i shouldnt. okay, sorry to Baby cause i didnt tell him im feeling down. i must learn how to manage my problems myself i guess. i just feel like crying );

whisper to me how can i move on.

2009-02-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

Playing On Repeat.

its my second day off for the week. im sick again. my nose is like tapwater. my cough is so bad. my flu is really killing me. im having common test like today. and im absent from school. I guess my body immune system is really down =/

i've missed alot for lessons but at least i should be happy that i scored 13/15 for Maths. I did the paper like only 10 minutes cause i was rushing to do Malay paper and end it fast. okay, thanks to my brain :D

thank you to my dearest Baby for accompanying me to the doctor yesterday. he cant accompany me today since he's working. i miss him alot. i get to meet him only on Friday cause he might be working tomorrow and i have cca! B! i'lll miss you alot you know?

im done, i wanna eat and go to the doctor again take MC. I shall go study today with my BestFriends. i better get well soon today since i need to take tests.

I MISS [M]UHD [K]HAIRI !

2009-02-14T02:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES!

at last my weekends are here. at least i get to chill-ex abit. school is very tiring and i have lots of homeworks! since my weekends are here, i have decided to celebrate Valentines day with my love ones. of course my BestFriends and BoyFriend! certainly it would be a great one. im just only done with my Valentines gifts for them, i made a windmill(i hope it will move when theres wind). forget it, whatever it is, its the thought that counts :D

i need to update my cupboards with new clothes like now. i want to get a new everlast shoes for myself! but i know it might not happen. i need to start saving.

okay, i really want to post alot of things. but im just too tired. very tired after schools and so on. i shall end here cause its 3.01am. BoyFriend is asleeeeeep ); (retribution- since i left him alone on the phone without hanging up cause i accidentally fell asleep. BUT, my cute BoyFriend of mine actually laugh at me when i was asleep-.-")

goodnight!

2009-02-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

GROW UP KIDS.

you've got to learn the term 'grow up'.

well this week, its been a great one for me with love ones.

though it was busy and rushing week, i enjoyed definitely.

exceptional of today, the twelve February.

well, this upsets me.

1) Friendships o.0

2) zero for summary(when i have an mc)

3) sprain my ankle

4) lost of necklace

5) stud gone

6) cant meet B.

7) no 6 equals no movies

theres more actually.

today is the best((((((: but i sprain my ankle. thats all.

i think certain teachers are nice to talk with, really.

okay goodnights.

i need to sleep, there's school tomorrow.

2009-02-11T18:26:00.003+08:00

CRASHED.

i sacrificed alot.
i love my only one, Ayie((((:

2009-02-09T15:02:00.004+08:00

Perhaps, ur promises are meant to be broken.

thanks for a million time. all the promises, u may blurt it out now.

cause whatever it is, i dont trust you anymore.

i cant, try gaining it back. its super difficult.

try arguing with me cause the fact you're the one troubling.

Tc girl.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING I GAIN IN LIFE.

thanks to everyone.

be it good/bad, im thankful for the fcuk up life.

2009-02-08T13:41:00.002+08:00

IM UPSET/DEPRESSED.

how does it feels like when you have to let go of someone you love alot. like really alot. more than anything. i dont put high hopes. but its just TRUST. i trust him to take care of me. i trust him to be with me thru my ups and downs. why couldnt you just believe me? instead, all you did was shoot harsh words to me. every single pasts. everything thats redundant. you dont even let me say my words. the next moment after shouting/screaming at me, you'll start to nag again. over the pasts. come on, the pasts is already over. im changing. in fact, i changed! i did for the sake of you, and everyone else who cared for me. you must not expect things to turn out the bestest way if its already going through step by step correctly. you have to know that sometimes, things doesnt turn out the way it wants. you musnt have said those words just to make me very upset. i was shure hurt over those things. i cried almost the whole time when what you said played through my mind. you said i get everything i want but i dont appreaciate, do you really get me anything that i want? definitely NO. it was a minor mistake. like what he says " if a drug addict could be given a chance, why not me?" yeah true. they do worst mistakes. this was just a minor mistake yet you reacted so bad that im all alone now typing feeling so stupid yet unloved by you. i feel abandoned by all of you. yeahyeah, everyone loves them more than me. yeahyeah, their much cleverer than me. so what? theres always a good thing behind all this bad things. and i dont want to spit out any single thing about them to you, in case you'll get hurt for putting overly too high hopes on them since they're way much better than me. i dont mind cause i know theres other people who cares for me. you said you love me, you said you care for me. but do you even really meant those words you said? do you? i dont ask anything for you just except for, stop comparing me with the rest. i had enough of this. and btw, he's way much better than him.

i shall end my post here. i shall stop posting until everything gets fine.

im totally hurt. im very upset. i feel stupid and i want to cry.

i just need a lending shoulders and listening ears.

thanks for those who adviced me. ily!

b, no matter what happens.

i'll stick to you.

take care of Sunshine just like how you took care of me.

give me time, we'll see how things goes.

im just happy that you took care of me and wipe my tears.

you tried many ways to make me stop shedding tears.

you're the best, ily!

);

2009-02-07T12:33:00.003+08:00

WTF.

Sometimes, I wonder when this times of suffer is going to end. I really hope it'll be soon. but I know its still long enough. I still have months to go. I dont even think of passing at all. All i could feel was a time of failure. Failure, its always on my mind. I dont know how I can change it. I realize I did well for N's. but I dont even think I'll do well for O's. With the results shown. I'll definitely be one of the failures. I just hope that Im one of the lucky ones. I've totally lost interest in studying. But what can I do? I can only study hard now till O's are over. And cry many times again waiting for results. ~ im continuing and not giving up for the sake of Family and Baby.

hopefully i gets well this weekend. and hopefully i'll return back to school on Monday. I miss 5a2. im trying to make an effort to pass my common tests. and if i make it, i'll definitely continue for better grades. pray hard for me then.

at least i have someone to stay with me thru my need. Family, Baby!, NineBestFriends and 5a2(((:

okaey im done ranting.

goodbye~

2009-02-06T12:14:00.002+08:00

im sorry for giving you troubles.
sorry for making you ran after me.
sorry for the stubborn times i gave.
you treat me with lots of care.
trying every moment not to spoil the day.
making me happy was your everyday mission.
i thank you for taking good care of me when im sick.
lastly, i thank you for the love you gave me.
Happy Second Monthsary to you! ily Baby :D

okaey, im not in school for four days already. im really sick. and its getting on my nerve. this week was not really a fantastic week. i had a tiff with B for two nights. i shouldnt elaborate here cause some people wanna be busybody and then pass to another people's ear. then spread rubbish. past 12 midnight last night, "not so happy 2nd monthsary" was what B thinks. but ended up, things got better. i didnt want to think about school. so get it why i was pissed off this days? plus im having my fcuking red flag. thats the bitch uh cannnn~

im meeting B later to see the doctor! and Yas is accompanying me. im meeting Sheila tomorrow since the two GayBoys are up to something. and meeting the rest for kite flying! omgomg, i cant wait! i love Saturdayyyyys :D

anyways, i'll be joining Kak Aiz dance crew for dancing, and i'll get to meet those i miss. especially Kak Faaz and Kak Yanaaaa~

2009-02-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

For the sake of my Baby, im updatting :D

Muhd Khairi Bin Khamari,
Get well soon okaey baby? dont think too much. see, now you're down with fever/running nose/coughs. sooooooooo, u better get well soon cause i miss your craps. and i miss you, certainly.

im not in school from Monday to Tuesday.
my body is scaring me off. my phlegm keeps on stuck and cant get out. irritating~ mummy have been pestering me to go for blood test since i've been falling sick frequently since Jan o9. but it freaks me out more. haha, okaey this is lame uhs. i've been kind of studying for common tests. i really need to put in double effort so i can hit my targets. i need to get back to school really soon. and study!

B is working on Friday equals i cant meet him! its the second monthsary siaaaaa); but nevermind. since he and Fiqq planned for a surprise double-date with Sheila to i-dont-know-where~ on Saturday. This two Gayboys just refuse to tell me where we're going. even after giving excuses like i cant go out if you're not telling me where we're going and i need to know. HAHA, okaey, my excuses sucks. forget it, i still love them but Muhd Khairi more ehhhhh~

till here, my Baby's asleeeeeep. i need to get sleep too :D
goodbye and nights!

2009-02-02T15:59:00.002+08:00

Taking your love ones for granted;

i wouldnt even care if i lost any of you cause i know im still able to survive. thanks for a million for all your past care & concerns. it doesnt last to me at all.

Reflections for the past weeks. everything seems to be only okaey. but its much better with 5a2 cause they're my awesome classmate. didnt think that kids nowadays loves to act big. HAHA.
rubbish, fancy fighting just wanna be popular kids in the school. thats why so immatured.

im enjoying my weekends with whoever i can go out with, especially B. (((((((: I actually studied and went to fly kite with and picnic with them. B, YAS, FIQQ, SHEILA. i dont even care if theres only few people.

okaey a piece of note here;
i wont be updatting much. anything can text me up to know how am i.
take care, goodbye!

waittttttt ,
i love [M]uhd [K]hairi.
& he's going RP.
all the best okaey baby.
take care and im always here for you!
((((((:

2009-01-24T16:32:00.002+08:00

(My mummy's is the best :D)

i begin to talk more . i am much more better talking to mummy . she understands me the best .

i love to see her smile/jokes around with me . i feel closer to her when she spend time with me over the weekend . even if its only an hour . I LOVE MUMMY ((((:

i know i shouldnt have hold any grudges against her . but she's just too much . imagine being overly so rude . you dont even show any respect . its not only you , but you including your friends . the best thing for me is just to be ignorant to you and your f* immatured friends :D

so , therefore , gooooooodbye biatch !

school was okaey for these days ! cannot believe that i did attend school the whole week ! FIVE DAYS STRAIGHT ~~~~ JOYCE LER PEI XUAN IS ABSENT FOR DAYS ! better come back uh you shorty get loose . HA-HA ! Friday had CNY celebration . wooohoooos , guess what ! guess what ! Sec Fives managed to win the banner decos . 5a1 was second , 5a2 was FIRST ! i love my class , 5A2 ! :DDDDD

im almost done , im following mummy to get cupcakes stuff since im out to celebrate birthday with dearest love ones . have a blessed CNY everyone ! and enjoy the weekendddds !

Fight like warriors , be the best .

all the way 5A2 !

2009-01-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

(Twenty-First January Baby)

Khairi's Little Princess is officially Seventeen :D

im glad that it was an awesome day even meeting B awhile and the mini celebration by family .

i swear it was a tiring day at school and im happy that at last i get to talk with my dearest Adeq Balqis ! i miss her like alot .

Anyway , thanks to these guys/girls for the wishes , gifts and everything :D

Lovely Family , BOYFRIEND ! , Awesome 5A2 , Bestest Dream Clique , Atiqah , Jun , Adora , Sheila , Wan , Fiqq , Khai Sapao , Izah , Asiqah , Haziqah , Adeq Balqis , Faiz , my sister-in-law , Dhiyana , kemetot , Yas , Kak Linnie , Fizah , Zee , Kecik , Mus , Assyura , Fasha , Ally and many more . (im sorry if i missed out!)

btw , Happy Advanced Birthday to Allyyyyyyyyy(:

2009-01-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

Firstly , Lisha is turning Seventeen in two hours time :D

i wont be celebrating cause i have school activities .

but i will be out for dinner with my Family .

Sunday will be celebrating with my Friends at Ecp .

you are invited to join :D

Secondly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURHAQIRAH !

its Fiqq's lil sister . that cute little one (i mean Haqirah not Hafiq) .

Thirdly , i love my friends and of course my only BoyFriend ,

[M]uhd [K]hairi ! :D

2009-01-19T15:27:00.003+08:00

(Happy 24th Birthday to my Big Brother , Ironmask ! )

i think i wished him three times already . midnight with a text msg . when he reach home , i sang him Happy Birthday (i was half-asleep) then i dozed off . and next here , at my blog ! see , how sweet your little sister is . okaey , i shall thank him like alot cause he's gonna sponsor alot for my birthday though im celebrating with Friends . awwww , so sweet :D

okaey , im back to school . im still half sick yet still able to carry on . school was okaey . i ad a bad start of the day/week . i bought milo early morning in school , and the f* milo was already milky , it tasted soury . i gave the aunty back and demand for refund ! (HA-HA , after all my friends tasted) then , lots of announcement .

im having a busy week this week . i skipped Malay remedial today ;P im very sad , veryvery sad .

Wednesday(21 Jan) - i have to cancel my date to watch movie on my Birthday since im having house practice . and they might start on the dance . and oh , IM ON FOR DANCE ! Chew will for sure win with me in , HA-HA kaey rubbish .

Thursday - i have cca !

Friday - i need to stayback for English project .

im glad that things between BoyF and me is back to normal . i was seriously hurt over his harsh words . but i know he said that cause he was angry . nevermind , he promised he would jump into the sea if he were to hurt me again :D

sometimes , i think that BoyF is really everything . he made me smile when i was down with his wide smile , his stupid ever jokes , his cute voice , his act cute expressions(though he knows im the cutest amongst my NineBestFriends,HAHA) and etc . see , my BoyF is very sweeeet lorh ! thats why i love [M]uhd [K]hairi !

okaey i wanna sleep first . BoyF having his interview at TP . he's meeting me later . i shall sleep first while waiting for him cause im dead tired . its only the first day of the week siaaaa , grrr .

i might be slacking with him at Macs :D

okaey GoodNight !

2009-01-18T13:28:00.004+08:00

I might be on hiatus , cause i cant take things easy with me now .

or i might even be deleting blog due-to-something .

sorry , goodbye .

[M]uhd [K]hairi , ILY !

please stop being very ego ):

cause

im seriously hurt over your harsh words in the whole of the texts that you send );

2009-01-18T02:28:00.003+08:00

(is it coming to an end?)

sometimes , i feel like screaming as i cry . but i just dont know how . its either a choice of crying or screaming . i wonder who's at fault at times . was it intentionally or unintentionally . what matters , someone will at least get hurt in the end . but why must be the one that i love ? i leave it all to god , he makes the right decision for me . why are those times coming back to me ? why am i being so emotionally weak again ? why ? its sucks to see myself like this , worst when im sick . i still need you . i dont want anymore fights . though a fight actually brings us nearer . drawing our hearts nearer . im celebrating 7-teen soon . i want it a much more memorable one . i want more happy moments instead of sour . arghh shit , i think im over-reacting . okaey , i wanna change phone with B like As Soon As Possible ! if can like now , this moment ! its gonna be three am soon . i dont care . i feel like hanging out at the park . i feel like jogging at the track opposite my blk . i feel like screaming . i feel like crying , like i am now . im just too silly , very silly . im just afraid to be alone now ! ass siaaaaaaaaaa ~ i feel like killing myself already .

You deeply care about each person you're friends with . For you , friendship is all about the personal connection .

but still , You cared more for your GirlFriend here .

NOW.......

One , i realized some stuffs need commitments and compromise .

Two , it takes time to tell everything .

Three , things go beyond control and there goes arguments .

Four , arguments make the peak of everything

i need a shoulder to cry on .

i need listening ears to hear me speak .

i need my friends .

i need my family .

i want daddy to return (though i hate him) .

okaey goodbye .
you may leave me a msg to cheer me up .
to give me advice .
say whatever you want .
send me vulgars .
maybe cause i know im never gonna reply .
nights , take care BoyFriend .
please dont give up for my sake ?
i love you like we promised .

2009-01-17T12:22:00.002+08:00

HALLUUUUUWWWW ,

yesterday went out to Kovan , pool-ed . and off to Esplanade . things wasnt right between me and BoyFriend from Kovan when he threw tantrums until Esplanade . i admit i was upset with him . but at Esplanade , he got over it . we talked things out . haha , he's so sweeeeeet :D then went for dinner , then talked and headed back home . wen reached home , Fizah , MummyShahirah and Boyfriend conferenced . we were all the way laughing like hell . then hang up sice i was the one wanting to sleep :D

im currently waiting for my BestFriends/BoyFriend to wake up . they're sleeping like a pig :D i need to go Bugis to change the top that i bought . then we're heading off to jamming . B got religious class today . cute kannnnn ! kaey i need to get my school stuff ready . im only staying at home tomorrow or slack somewhere near my house . causeeeee , i have to go back school on Monday .

okaey like finally someone is awake , BOYFRIEND ! cause i called him . haha .

okaey bubbbbbbye , (HA-HA)

BoyFriend , remember the promise we made(:

2009-01-15T10:55:00.002+08:00

(i miss Ms Ferng.)

i think she's the best teacher which i could ever have . cause she tolerates with us like alot even we are so called the laziest and naughtiest class . she never fail to keep herself from smiling even we give her a pissed off lesson . want to know her secrets ? she uses sarcasm to pissed us off back :D

okaey , im not back to school today , im sick again . like wth , its been two weeks im sick . my fever comes and goes . i've not been to cca . and i better get well soon before my attendance flies down to below 75% and with that , i cant take my O's . okaey i need to get ready like now . im going to the doctor and im off to meet B to see him do his portfolio . ghe has an interview tomorrow at TP , i wish BoyFriend will get in to TP horrrrr .

im turning Sweet 7-teen in 6 days time . wheeeeeeee ! okaey , im not excited about it cause i have school . okaey goodbye !

ANYWAY TO JANUARY BABIES , HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

* HAZIQAH

*VICKI

*JAAZIEL(though its been 6-teen days past)

*NURUL

*MYSELF(:

*SAKIMANNNNNN(my brotherrrr)

*ALEP

*NANA

and the next thing , i cant remember who else (:

BoyFriend ,

dont be so happy that you bought a new snowcap !

HA-HA . kaey , ily lahhhhhhhhhhh .

2009-01-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

I knew you're still the best !

FIRSTLY,

the previous beginning post wasnt for real lah !

im still moving on to be a school kid since i have to .

and brothers have 'pledged' to suffer together .

SECONDLY,

WAHHHHHHHH ! SOMEONE WANNA WHACK ME !

(dont think i am referring to you cause you dont know im referring to who !)

come on lah , if you think you're way so matured ,

you should know whats right and wrong .

grow up assholes .

i know school sucks at times . im trying my best to survive till O's is over . NanaaBestie is back to schooool and she's much more talkative than before ! :D i hope she's feeling better . and i feels good for her cause i miss her like alot . i've gotta say that the kids sucks . they're giving me a sore eyes . i just hated to be stared at cause there's nothing to stare . i shall not mention you kids . cause i don't want to embarass you .

B , Fizah and Kak Shana took results yest . B did quite well considered . cause he could actually qualify for his course . and Fizah , i don't want to say anything . Kak Shana results i still dont know . i hope she does well .

today was an officially PL public holiday due to good O's achievement :D

i am a GOOD GIRL ! cause i did my essay filled with 1483 words . and malay book review three pages and Chemistry extra notes . see , i am not lazy ! studied awhile with Yas . met B and went dinner . and nowwwwwww , im dead bored at home !

i hate daddy cause he's sucha what . he thinks im living happily here . he doesnt even care about me but acted like as if he cares . im sick of this , very sick .

i miss [M]uhd [K]hairi already , how ?

goodbye , i love Muhd Khairi okaey ! :D

2009-01-09T14:22:00.001+08:00

IM QUITING SCHOOL AND IM GOING HIGHER NITEC IN APRIL'S INTAKE !
HAPPY ?!.
CAUSE SCHOOL SUCKS TO THE CORE );

you think im crazy to give up halfway though many unhappy things happen to me at school uhs ? -.-

im a school kid now ,
im a school kid now !
lol , shut up eh .

i cant even blog at home cause i cant even go online . school already started like one week ? and i just only attend for school for 2 and a half day ! i was on mc on Monday and Tuesday . back on Wedensday and it sucks to the core . i got caught over hair (not colour but messy hair!) Secondly, prefects said that my pinafore was short when it wasnt ! so ignored . back to class . and for Chem lesson , i actually got caught for short pinafore , this time was for real . cause i changed out to my cool pinafore(wth) . Mrs R! made me embarassed in front of the whole class and actually wanna dragged me to the Principals office(another wth). got a haircut after school and blahblahblah . B fetch me leeeeehhhh ! since it was our first monthsary(only first!)

yesterday was half-day for me since i was having my menses . and it really pissed me off . it gave me cramps more than i thought . i almost fainted in school during assembly . i was trying to get my formulas back during maths and it did ! then mummy fetched me . i got my payyyyyyyy (:

then today , i was sick . at 3am my nose couldnt stop giving troubles . it leaks and when my nose was blocked , it still leaaaaaks uhs .

okaey bye . im waiting for B to get ready .

2009-01-02T17:53:00.002+08:00

(BoyFriend!)

school started today ! arghhhh . idk whats wrong with my body uhs can . reached school , met the usuals . i was freaking in a bad mood in the morning . cause in the packed bus 62 , this lady just refuse to move in , so i just move in pushing her and so on . at school , packed with students going up , and this prefect just couldnt wait uhs , so i accidentally scolded her , HAHA . first day school and i started with my vulgars . thats so fantastic eh Lisha . the best part of the day was , i kept on dozing off anywhere im settled down . in the hall & in class . my nose gave me trouble again like a tap cannot off . i kept on sneezing . got to know who's our form teacher (Mrs D.) and co-tutor (Ms L.) .

Mrs Lee speech about the good news of 2oo9 . one of it , the 08 sec fours which managed to get 1oo% promoted to sec five . then went back to class which was previously Kak Shana class venues . i fell sleep and then sitting arrangement and so on . i actually like sat beside JOYCE LER/PRETTY LER/BROTHER/BITCH ! we acted like as if we didnt really like but deep inside heart we like screaming .

Mrs D. was telling us bout the O's stuffs , as usual i was half-awake o.- called B ! :D had recess , just omg , the canteen changed alot like a thousand time . i couldnt find my fav food . so i got no choice , i just had to eat something . had the same recess with Nabs . then headed back to class .

school ended at 2.oo . & i wasnt caught about my hair colour ! im gonna redye it to black this weekend since there's s.check next week .

reach home and i eat and headed to my dreamland less than 20 mins time leaving the tv switched on . i was woken up by B's text asking me if i wanna accompany him to visit his grandmum in hospital . so , im meeting him later ! yay ! didnt get to text him like usually cause i had school and he was busy with work . i miss him like alot .

i shall not update bout what happen on my New Year dated o1o1o9 . cause i think its sucha bad beginning for me and my NineBestFriends.

okaey goodbye , i need to get ready .

2008-12-30T23:32:00.003+08:00

things are finally over . cause i believe it didnt happen purposely .
had a day out with B , Dorkee , Yas to NVSS to get school books . saw Syawal so asked him to tagged along with us . accompanied him to get his haircuts . then off me and B to catch Twilight(like at last,wth) headed for lunch . after that we sat in front of TheCathay and had a veryyyyy long talk about some family matters and also about schools . we shared like alot . so called ups and downs for the past years .

so fast 2oo8 fly pass . its gonna be 2oo9 in less than 25 hours . i hope it could be a new special year for me . i really want to stop giving troubles to the people around me . im turning 7-teen in 22 DAYS TIME ! wheee ~ make my sweet 7-teen a memorable one for me cannn ? i ask for no gifts but just one , for god to grant every single things i need not want , Amin .

im meeting B tomorrow again ! Happy Advanced New Year ! since i dont think i get to post tomorrow ! (((((((((((:

goodnights.

B , im sorry for whatever happens too . i know you'll be there for me to be my pillar of strength . i love you !

2008-12-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

Third.

i just couldnt stop crying.
i hope things are fine for us now.
seems like everything gonna change.
you wont know how i feel right now.
cause you dont.
its like fire and fire, never ending.
how long more?
up to you.
since Im causing everything,
suggest your own way out.

2008-12-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

say goodbye to my Flyers tix since the Flyer is under maintenance .

another wat the hell , cheebyecheesycheesefries siaa !

do u even care what i feel?

do you even love me?

its like almost every single day shure theres at least a misunderstanding.

i just dont know what else i could do.

i thought this would never happen.

but things love to pop up suddenly remember?

idk what now cause it seems like u started it.

i told you i was fine and suggest something that was better,i think.

arghhh, forget it. i know im always at fault.

blame me for everything kaey, i deserve this!

2008-12-29T21:28:00.007+08:00

(muker mentel siaaaaa)

i shall post whatever i wanted to in yesterday post .
yesterday with Yas tag B & Fiee along to see their match at Taka with their team Generasi/Geylang West . overall it was just a match . wth thing is i had to sit/stand under the blazing sun . it was like afternoon that time . they actually embarrased me by taking out my Barney inside bag and showing to like strangers ! wth siaa(again.) i saw kak zella , micky(rambot da botak) and amy . they participated in the dance competition . after that , headed to Cineleisure with B and Yas to watch movie . so we caught Bedtime Stories . the movie was nice .

after movie , headed for dinner at PR . then back home . didnt hang out cause i think theres no more place to hang out . back home , and nothing entertain me . B was busy fixing the new bed . so ended up i sleep since theres noone i could chat while online-ing .

today i stayed at home hoping for calls/texts to hang out . but none , so i went to get my hair done . its like short now . then went to hougang mall to get me and brother school books/stationaries . ended up mine was like no stock at all . like wtf siaa(again&again.) met up with Fizah , Dhiyana and Banu . slacked then went home . im getting my school book tomorrow with Yas and B . and meeting Fizah to catch Twilight . i've been wanting to watch but like theres noone who wanna go .

schools starting in like four days time . equals nomore late nights . nomore hanging out as much like i do during the holidays . nomore having extreme fun . in other hand , its equals to , more homeworks . more study . more tuitions . more vitamins which i hate like alot . more morning runs at school ! sucks to the core siaaa . i dont want school . but i have to go .

stop complaining lah asshole .

i realized i shall be like appreaciative for what things i've got . and also know that sometimes , its very difficult to get the things that i've been wanting even after many hardworks/efforts put in . but i should be greatful for example , my good results . i didnt really work real hard and didnt expect with a promoted to sec Five . lastly i should thank to them . those who really push me to study really hard and stay focus in school despite the troubles i love to give .

i remembered that mummy was always the one getting calls during work from school being told that i've been giving troubles . and she even took day off just to come down school and meet my discipline mistress even over a smallest issue(bullying) . but still , she's the best mum and the only one i need in my whole life ! next was my Brother . he never fails to travel all the way to school just to fetch me when im sick . i feel like they both are the ones who supported me all the way and being by my side like everytime . even i love to give them troubles . the second one that i need too :D (see how lovely your little sister is) though lifes kinda not easy wothout daddy around . thats what he chose to be/do . and we cant even say anything . i hope that one fine day , daddy would return back to us , cause i miss you ayah );

i've got my new year resolutions . i prayed to god that i would not be as stubborn like i am this year . i wish that things wouldnt be so tough for me cause i know they're actually part of my ups and downs of life . theres many things i want but i shall not list it here since some is privacy . but another thing is , i want my NineBestFriends to stick together foreverrrrr (:

i miss B since we didnt meet today . im waiting for him to online now , hurry ! ~

2008-12-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

Third.

asshole lah .
im very pissed off cause i typed out like so long , and it just restart !
cheeeeeeeeeeeeee-bye cheseefries siaaaaa ~
fcuk uhs , fcuk uhs . blogger sucks to the core for not saving as draft !
)))))))));

B , faster online lah ! )))))))));

2008-12-28T21:45:00.007+08:00

PICTURES.

2008-12-28T06:38:00.002+08:00

(how one pathetic picture can look)

at last i could go online at home !

i've been suffering without going online at nights with BestFriends ! i couldnt chat wit anyone , like wtf . okaey , be grateful i can use now , stop complaining Lisha .

its 0645am now . im getting ready real soon cause B's dad is fetching me off to go out . its soooooo early , im having running nose and its superfcuk irritating . school's starting in five days time . fcuk , and i haven get my school books yet .

okaey bye , i need to bath and get ready like nowwwww !

before B's father reach , goooodbye ~

2008-12-27T18:05:00.002+08:00

My internet at home brokedown .

currently no updates , im busy having fun out here with NineBestFriends :D

im lazy to update ! goodbye .

Boyfriend , Muhd Khairi<3

2008-12-22T00:25:00.003+08:00

(o6.December.o8)

im trying real hard to enjoy working since its gonna be an ending soon . i need to settle the countdown stuffs and after countdown , say goodbye to work . cause i need to get school stuffs . arghhh fcuk , i've yet to buy school books . sooon uhs , soooon uhs . malas siaa . i've too many things in head right now . i dont know what is it .

i met B yest . Banu , Fizah & MamiShairah came my hs for dinner . B went home cause he insisted . i get to meet him like only 2 hours ? wahhh siaaaan . not meeting him today . but B pwomised me he will fetch me on Tues . and we shall hit the Singapore Flyer & Marina Barrage Wednesday since its my off day .

Thurs isnt my off day and im trying real hard to get someone to replace me cause i sooooo wanna meet Faizah&Nuri & Yana for a date ! cause its like ages we had long talk ~

its like less than 2 weeks time im gonna start school . no more fooling around since i really dream of wanna go to sec five ! and now that im in sec five , i shall better buck up and study lorrrr ! wahhh ass siaaa . but nevermind , (5)FIVE.A.TWO(2) ! SHALL ROCK THE SCHOOL ! (((:

2008 coming to an end too . soooon , hello 2009 ! and my birthday ! woooootsyy . i cant wait for school to reopen ! cause i get to see 4d2 '08 !

okaey goodnights . i wanna msn with B .

2008-12-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

(hello SevenBestFriends)

im still smiling , no more frowning . wait till school start , ohoooorrrrrr ~

B at ecp with family . he ask me to taunt , crazy siaaaa ! im working tomorrow , hello ! never get to meet him . might be meeting tomorrow cause we're going Changi to kakak pit . and off to my house for dinnerrrrr (:

woooooootsyyyywooootsyyyy meeeny minyyyyyy ~

kaey , im bored . and thanks to the guys/girls who congrats me . appreciated ! & thanks for the lots and lots and many and many of the smallest/littlest/medium/big/biggest gifts . i love you peoples forever and everrrrrr . haha .

okaeeeeey , goodnights . i wanna msn awhile and i wanna have a beauty sleep tonight since i didnt get enough sleep due to being so anxious bout results for the past weeks -.-

bye B ! i know you're out there having fun , im left to be sober one day u know ? HAHA .
i miss you .

2008-12-20T04:02:00.002+08:00

(Muhd Khairi Bin Khamari)

enjoyed after results ! and B keeps on saying this "dapat naik sec five beh happy uhs ! sebelom result muker asik monyong jeh" heeeehes . saper tak happy ! :D

but , i must not enjoy too much cause i got another year . this will determine where i go . i shall work extreme hard . grrrr , i've yet to order my school books . i need to order it like soon ? and get my school stuffs/stationaries .

yesterday i work and it feels so tired ! & my workplace have this snake charming show and it disgust me like alot ! B even took picture and hold it ! eeeeeeeew ! after work celebrated Fiqq's birthday . and the best thing is , Fiqq kena saboooooo ~ then slacked and off back home (:

okaey goodnights , i need to sleep ! im working tomorrow ):

2008-12-19T02:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 6-TEEN BIRTHDAY MUHD HAFIQ BIN HAMZAH !
STUDY HARD AND SMART ! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR FUTURE !

& PLEASE , DONT BE A GAYBOY AND GO AROUND MENGGATAL WITH MY BOYFRIEND ;D

for once only , today , NINETEEN DECEMBER , for one day only i allow you to be with my BoyFriend since its YOUR birthday .
AFTER 1159PM OF NINETEEN DECEMBER ,
no more SAYANGSSAYANGS , BABYBABY , KISSKISS my BoyFriend okaey ! :D

2008-12-19T01:40:00.002+08:00

(he's always the thunder)

i cried for nights cause i was afraid of taking results .
i was afraid i couldnt make it and even came to mind not taking my results .
but everythings over , those tears i made for nights .
even crying on my way to school while waiting for bus .
its actually just a waste . cause i made it to sec five . at that point of time , tears just couldnt stop rolling down my cheeks ! grrrr , paisey siaaa ! im veryvery happy cause my school was above nationals and we actually had 100% pass ! and thats equals to , i get to be in the same class as Bestf/Brothers/Bitches ! unexpected results . i thought i would get like eleven or ten but it turns out that i got Seven . shocked thing is i passed my Science and Combined Humans ! woohooooo ~

as promised , i gave B a hug after collecting my result slip . and relatives started texting me bout results . indeed they were impressed with me . i didnt expect them to care bout me like alot and alot ! thanks !

im just very happy ! cause i didnt expect i would make it ! B have to start tutoring me and my little sibling . and i must start with tuition like early , cause i dont want to cry anymore . since i made it to sec five , i must get a haircut soon since mummy dont want me with fancy hairstyle to school . sigggghhhhs , no more long hair );

im gonnaaaaaaa get a new lappy soon ! like YAY ! and i shall try to get abang to buy me a dslr ! huahuahua ~ i need to stop working soon , means no more blast shopping like this month . );

okaey goodnightttttttts ,
congrats all 'N' level 2008 taker who manage to get promoted / passed !

especially Five of my Seven BestFriends who did extreme well !
the other two , still got a month to 'O's result :D

2008-12-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

hell , its already Eighteen December .
how am i gonna face the day im not waiting for .
those motivations given , it really didnt help me at all .
all i wish was for God to grant my only wish for now .
i want to stay with my awesome classmates .
mummy/daddy/relatives/boyfriend/SevenBestFriends/friends ,
pray hard for me that i could get to sec five .
);

i met B a moment ago together with Yasmin . meet Fiqq and Band . then headed to Beach Road without Fiqq and Band . but the shops are already closed , so we just had dinner . then off back home . there i go again texting B telling him that its really freaking me out . we'll see how it goes . results will be released in like 13 hours time . prepare for the worst Lisha );

B , if i fail lets go out with my frown face that u always see .
B , if i pass lets go out like as if im the happiest kid .
Lisha , Lisha , come on , its part of life .

2008-12-17T00:55:00.003+08:00

i just cant stop crying when it comes to night .
im really tense over it .
its always early part of the day im happy but the next moment i'll be crying .
i dont know what im suppose to do .
i just dont want to see my results , cause its gonna freaks me like alot !
its in a day time . ONE day . i am very shure that i really will disappoint mummy if i were to fail .
);

i guess theres nothing i shall post about .
);

2008-12-15T23:02:00.004+08:00

my head is spinning .
my stomach keeps giving me trouble .
my body keeps on aching .
my voice is almost gone .
i hate it when im sick .

kaey , i almost fainted at work today . but thanks to my friends who were there . they actually ask me to work at office cause they dont want me to faint at resort . i went office and it really keeps me busy . almost everyone working is sick . and some took mc . wooohooos , i learnt card printing ! Raudhah left me halfway cause she was very sick . so she went home . i didnt want to go home cause i still can bear with the troubles my body is giving .

im having meeting tomorrow at work between 11am-12noon . pray hard that i will feel better than today . Yas gonna fetch me and we're meeting the rest for plans . :D

while i was on my way back home just now , i just feel like msg-ing Baby something . which i shall not type it out here . soooo there i go texting him saying this and that . and it just make me smiled at some of the text that he replied me .

i know he's trying his best to be with me all the times . i know he wants to take care of me when im sick . at times right B , u must know that certain things are much more important than me . i understand you . i thank him for not failing to stand with my stubborn attitude . we're not gonna meet for like 2 days . includes tomorrow cause he needs to work . i really miss him like alot .

i want to thank to those who gave me words of wisdom saying that i would make it and stuffs . those 'O' level kids at work , work staffs , B and SevenBestFriends . i feel a little better after all those encouragements you guys give me . thank you !

okaey , goodbye .
i need a rest .

2008-12-15T01:32:00.002+08:00

P I C T U R E S !

i skate(: (macam paham)

Bedah skate(((((:

SevenBestFriends.

Purple for GAYBOYS.

DAYTONAAAA.

Permintaan Hati :D

2008-12-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

was it just a fairytale ? was it just a dream ?
it just keeps on rewinding in my mind .

sometimes , i think im really the stubborn one .
if not stubborn , i think im the one thats stuck up/ironic .
i know its rather not too late / very late to regret .
whatever happens it might/might not be my fault .
cause i know that everyting i do is the best for me .
you cant control me neither can you stop me .
like really , i have lots of thing playing in my mind .
i just dont know what is it thats really bothering me .
i admit im weak enough . i admit i cry over stupid stuffs .
like i say , i really dont know whats bothering me .
);

went for a wedding ceremony yest . at last i get to meet dearests . Nana,Era,Nini((((:
its been weeks since i met them . then headed to East Coast . the atmosphere fcuking cold ! due to the rain . B's dad fetch us by lorry . and it pass by Singapore Flyer and Marina Barrage . makes me feel so tempted to go there like now ! but who would go there when its like 1240am ? nevermind , i will be hitting that place sooooon , like veryvery sooooon ! :D
kaey back to yest . bowled at East Coast and pool . then went home . i just dont know how to describe the fun that i had . i dont know bout how much fun they had there , ask them personally .

im working tomorrow . B not gonna send/fetch me .
THREE more days , and Results out .
i dont know if i can make it . let me have a peace in mind for now . i just want enjoyment before results , in case i got grounded again over bad results . i want a new lappy/upgrade my phone ! asssssss-holeeeeeeee ! -.-

goodbye !
i need to design for mummy her workstuff .
and i wanna chat with my SevenBestFriends .

2008-12-14T03:01:00.002+08:00

dear god , grant me my wish please );

i dont know how long more im gonna be like this . i know things are rather unstable for me . but im just trying to put up an act to let people know im fine . i just wouldnt want to trouble anyone else . cause every single thing , every mess , my friends would be there for me . i know its good , but to some , they think its just an immatured act . however i know i still need to be extra independent . i am trying to be the used-to-be cheerful girl . i know its difficult . this are ups and downs of life , i know . managing time/stress . i feel like giving up at times , but i know thats always the beginning of success . my life sucks big time .

Another awesome day with my seven BestFriends :D

we went to Grandlink to karaoke and pool . then headed off to Vivo and Sentosa . omg , the ZoukOut seems to be super fcuking fun ! i have lots of pictures to upload . cause i think all the pictures taken can be sold at high price :DD

kaey RUBBISH eh . im attending a wedding tomorrow . and im off to bowling and jamming wit seven BestFriends . another awesome day . i know they are always there for me .

Goodnights !

B ! i hate you uhhhhs ,

for scandal-ing with Fiqq and Fiee !

gaaaaaaaaah , kiddings (((((:

I L O V E Y O U ~~~

2008-12-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

(my BoyFriend love this picture)

I am freakingggggggggg tired/restless/pissed off/sort/bingit/happy/stress/sad. kaey thats alot eh . im sick of work . its really getting on my nerve over those kids . but im lucky enough to have many listening ears . thankful to them . gahhh , results in 5 days . suckkkks siaaaa .

As of today , im not gonna say anything . not Im , WE . cause i think they're just an immatured kid . meh langgar wire agik , aku conferm kenekan kau . ader pergi ader baleq kaey . what we know , you're just at fault , B.itch .

(saper teraser seriously , kau peh psl kaey?)

meet B at Yas house . then we headed for dinner with his dad . then off back home . and now im here blogging . i've got many plans in head now . like seriously .

okaey goodnight !

i wanna plan with Girlfriends bout tomorrow .

B and bestfriends bsok soccer , have fun !

2008-12-12T00:24:00.003+08:00

(i miss BoyFriend & my little princess)

downtown-ed today since im working .

B , Yas , Fiqq & Fiee came down to slack .

i kept on going to Mac to meet them while working .

imagine three lappy with two guitars .

and sudden HEAVY RAIN ,

goshhhh , everyone panic for a moment .

then off back to work since my break ended .

while doing my paperwork stuff at office ,

something just happen which make me super pissed off .

and its somekind really make me wanna quit working .

thanks to the rest who cool-ed me down .

i swear its tough working days after days .

after work , headed off to White Sands Macs .

eat/slacked .

onlined using Yas lappy's since hers was the only survival .

then guitared/sing/laugh/story2 .

then her lappy's was going dead , so we headed home .

HAHA , FIQQ !

thanks ehhh , i know , we know , that bitch doesnt .

(((((((((((((:

something just happen to B .

he wasnt in a very good mood afterall .

i realized things gonna change a little bit only .

since he needs to change his plans .

(eg; taking care of his brother)

he's not going to send me to work most of the time .

neither will him fetch me always .

since his maid is flying off , he needs to do the housework .

poooooooor thing .

i seriously didnt know what i should say to cool him down .

but soon after he was fine(i think)

and there he goes replying me ,

"bt wad if i miz u soo much ..............blahblah hw?den cn i fetch u.."

HAHA , step cute ajerh Baby aku !

forget it , what i know is , im gonna miss B like alot .

now im having conference with Fizah , Dorkee , Fiqq & Fiee .

as usuals , our late night msn conference .

B is already asleep cause he needs to work tomorrow .

and Yas is not going online since her internet sort .

arghhh .

im left with 6 days .

pray hard for me that i could make it ;D

B's having soccer this Sat with his Generasi team .

i wanna tag along can ? please,please !

Sunday i have wedding to attend .

Monday im working .

Tues to Thurs is my official off day .

(they want me to take good rest before results)

but im very sure , im going to Singapore Flyer !

Marina Barrage ! & celebrate Fiqq's birthday ! ;DD

Thurs is Result .

Fri to Sun , im back to work .

okaey , i wanna stop here .
cause the conference with BestFriends are on silent hill .
goodnights ass .

2008-12-11T00:21:00.004+08:00

(swear i am cute , self-praise , HEHE)

like finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ,

Nothing.

work today was fine/slacking/sucks

but overall it was fun (((((;

had meeting with the other comms.

thankkkkkkkyou for appointing me as the Chairman !

i swear im gonna create lots and lots of troubles.

did the planning of Chalet and stuffs. & i cant wait.

Countdown programmes/events , i think its super cool ;D

and my work friends actually bullied me.

they played with double sided tapes , and it stick on my hair !

im lucky enough that it can be take out.

then headed to meet B , Fiqq and Yas at bowling.

headed to PR to slack/play guitar.

then go home .

B just made me shocked a moment.

cause i texted him asking if he alr take 43 back home.

then he say no , not yet , Iris cheated him and stuffs.

there i was , shocked and like panic for a moment.

and replied him to checked again.

but thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn,

this act-cute-boy replied me saying that he's alr in 43 at Geylang area.

pathetic nyer daddyyyyyy -.-"

bye , i want to chat with BestFriends ;D

2008-12-10T02:17:00.003+08:00

8 days , am i able to make it ?

i love Family.

i love BestFriends.

& of course ,

i love Babyyyyyyyyyyy !

they're seriously my pillars of strength .

im happy i have them cause they give me morale support .

give me chances after mistakes , especially babyyy&bestfriends .

giving me the best solutions to every problems .

thankkkkkkks dearest love ones ! ily !

& not to forget , thanks to Livia Tan !

for those sweet words of wisdom saying that i'll be able to make it .

thankkkks all ! <3

baby fetch me from work , and we went to meet BestFriends .

hawt news ! dorkee called the police up .

HAHA . bout this man .

which we thinks he's dead/too drunk/fainted/suicided .

NONSENSE & RUBBISH .

so the ambulance and police came .

but we went off to give Aniysh a birthday surprise .

then headed off home .

nowwwwwwww , baby's msn keeps on signing up !

and he just flooooded my cbox , pantats betol .

wait ,

i really wanna go

Singapore Flyer/Marina Barrage/Town/Slack/Sentosa

to snap alot,alot,alot of pictures

ververyveryyyyy badly ):

im busy with work , and it isnt fair to me .

cause baby's too freeeeeeee and he gets to meet BestFriends ALWAYS .

im veryvery jealous cause im sick of work .

but nevermind , at least baby gonna bring me to this places ((((((:

anyway , im dragging baby along to Desaru with Family.

and im cancelling my trip to Scotland since its gonna clash with chalets/outings.

))))))))))))));

2008-12-09T12:06:00.003+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS ,
i just met baby !
now im at work , tired sak . dont feel like working .
at night meeting BestFriends<3kaey>
she's suck a sore loser , takder cara peh minah tudung !
kaeeeeeeeeeeeey ?
jgn luper , kiter happy2 selalu jehhhh , care nothing bout that fcuking BITCH !
((((((((((((((((((((((((:

2008-12-09T02:23:00.003+08:00

Awesome start of the day,
afterall , im really veryvery down/frustrated till now.
yes im a stuck up kid/stubborn.
so what ? blame me for all you want!
cause i know you guys are happy that now i've give in!
thanks a million.

this is what i get.
things turning out in a fcuking pissed off manner.
i dont ask for things to be this way,
yeah forget it , leave me alone.
cause its the bestest way i can fnd.
let me cry out all i want,
it'll make you guys feel muchmuch more happier.
i dont mind being in the dark alone.
so be it.
`disappointed

2008-12-09T00:38:00.002+08:00

Backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk from jalan-jalan ,
MENDAK SIA TODAY !

kaey , sumpah aku happy pasal ader hal careq aku .

si pukimak minah ferring/tudung , Shaa CHEEBYE ! ;
WELCOME TO OUR WORLDDDDDDD ;D
wooooooot , kaey , nie pompan kan , mintak kene pump siol !
maki mak aku sembarangan ~
dier fikir kelakar sak .
dalah minah tudung , beh ader hati plak nak maki-maki orang .
pepekk sak itu budak , ketawerkan dier sudah .
eh pompan , selamat eh !
nak maki aku face to face , takyah nak pat tagboard ~
kau nak bawak satu lorry ? bawak uhs .
aku tujuh orang jeh eh bleh matikan kau peh kawan kentalszzxzxzxzx !~
haha , rubbish sak shaa ~
da sah budak 19-93 .
the only budak 1993 yg buat hal ngan aku ~
nampak sah kental siyol !
goodbye B I T C H ~

KITER NINETY-NINETY-TWOOOOOOOOOOOOO EH BABY ?
yay , besok baby anta aku gi werkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ~
wooots , yessaaaaaar !
tak sabar nak meet dier ! ;DDDD

wow , im fcuking Annoyed here .
like seriously sak ,
HAHA , kaey best ehh ~

goodbye , nak msn with baby & besfriends <3

2008-12-08T15:03:00.005+08:00

Booooooooooooooooooooooo-Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

todays hari rayer haji !
goooodbye kambings ! i didnt get to see them again this year );
woooooooots , boredgerek perh ~
my family is like still at home now .
everyone busy doing own stuff then never layan me .
abang eating , khai watching tv & mummy inside room .

baby now at Yishun blk 700+
im going Yishun too , but blk 222 .
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ~
hurry come Tues !

Fcukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ,
10 freaking more days ! arghhhhh );

okaey done , i need to get ready now ~ gooooodbye !

2008-12-07T22:44:00.003+08:00

(i miss this.)

Booooooo-yah !

im feeling like a thousand time better than yesterday

thanks to those who cheered me up !

im finally having my off day !

but , its a public holiday and mummy's gonna bring me out

where else if not my relatives house

im happy cause i get to meet my kaypoh little princess !

my nephew lahhhhh ~

but ,

sad thing i cant meet babyboy like two day !

he didnt fetch me today cause he's busy

and tomorrow , cause im going out with family

Tuesday then he's meeting me , wtf !

im fcuking busy this coming week !

Mon - Off day but public holiday

Tues to Fri - WORK ! & meeting(Weds)

Sat & Sun - Wedding !

there goes my plan outing with love ones to jb );

the following week ,

i still dont have my schedule .

but to what i know , my heart gonna beat quite fast !

RESULTS LIKE 8-TEEN DEC !

the next day is Fiqq's 6teen birthday ~

okaey , shuttttttuppp !

baby , i miss you dengszxzxzx ~

muwarkkkks !

btw , HAPPY 7TEEN BIRTHDAY COUSIN SULAIMAN !

see you tomorrow ! :D

` Muhd Khairi Bin Khamari[:

2008-12-07T03:23:00.003+08:00

im super upset now
i dont know how to face with life
thats the reason
i dont even know what i want in life/future

is there even any way out for me ?
will i be given a chance
worst , im pressurized over results
another eleven more days
goodness , idk what its gonna be like
be it a pass/failure
like i say , i always face failure
i hope i would at least get to see something different

i always feel left out
thinking that noone cares bout me
i know i was wrong cause many cares for me
but i just dont see it
i dont get it

arghhhhh , forget it
i shall fight back with this upset/angry/frustrated feeling
i want to be the used-to-be happy kid
but i know , it'll never happen

2008-12-07T00:38:00.003+08:00

"compassions in my nature"

wooooooooots , i got my pay already !
YESSSSAAAAAARRRRRR
im saving it for shopping soon with Baby & Bestfriends<3
confirm gerekkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Bestfriends Forever <3
Forever ? it may never last , but ....
we promised each other to be together no matter what
we even promised not to hide things
be it a small matter or big matter
i think you guys are the best !
making me smile every single moment
and protecting me from harms
therefore , we deserved being bestfriends forever !
love you kids !
( Baby , Dorkee , Fizah , Fiqq , Fiee , Yasmeen )

`you'll always be my thunder

2008-12-06T03:01:00.003+08:00

" cause i was born to tell you i love you "

im officially yours ~

whom-it-may-concern ;
EH , you dont know the story
get a life
stop finding troubles
cause they're mine , not yours
you dont even know them
they have got nothing to do with you
so you think its funny to 'maki' them ?
it isnt fyi
so shut up & get a life
that day was your day
next time , it'll be our day (10 x better) !

(siaper teraser , kau peh pasal)

BestFriends<3
i so wanna meet them like soon
cause they meant everything to me
though we usually fake quarrel at msn
we're gonna go thru thick & thin together
we're not gonna be upset over anything
still , they're the best
and thats why its called BestFriends<3
"ini sumerh ________"
HAHA , KAEY , ITS MINDSET !

time check , its 0311 am
& im not sleeping yet
im like working tomorrow

date check , its o6 Dec o8 !
12 fcukng days to results
(omg , screamszxzxzxzxzx ~)

2008-12-05T17:38:00.003+08:00

*okaey , this two kids met me up at costa sand pasir ris while im working .

i know they care like a million for me . thanks ! *

Bestfriends , family & friends ,
thank you for the advice yeah :D

at least , i wanna be a happy kid again .
i dont wanna see anymore failure .

im getting my pay maybe TOMORROW !
that makes me excited !
(sorry eka cause yours still long way to go ;D )

im getting a guitar & forking out money for dslr and new lappy !
wheeeeeeeee ~
much much more excited !

okaey , im at work now .
shall update maybe tonight , or else , some other days .

`the reason you're there for me baby , ily !

2008-12-04T09:59:00.002+08:00

Booooooooooooooooyah !

i just woke up .
& i need to get ready soon for work .

Yesterday was awesome day !
went to Wild Wild Wet .
with Ayie & siblings and one friend , Dorkee , Fizah & Yas .
gerekkkk sak but , the foam pit was mepekkkkkkk !
after da puas swim , we went to bowl .
si Sepak Tetek Menang sakkkkkk ,
mindset uhs nie sumerh ! takleh percayer ~

okaeyokaeeeey ,
i need to get ready now .

Even a thousand miles can keep us apart .

2008-12-04T01:48:00.001+08:00

Lisha very mooooooooody !

.....................................

still , BestFriends the best ! <3

14-teen daaaaays ~

2008-12-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

VICKI ! im sorry , i dont want to do the tag !

cause i actually cannot copy paste ! grrrr ~

i have a lot of things to say .

but , i shall not post every single part of it , cause im tired !

now marks the SECOND of december , that means .

JENG,JENG,JENG !

16-TEEN DAYS TO RESULT !

wah fcukkkkkkkkkkk ~~~~~~

kaey forget it ehh , shut up assholes .

let me have enjoyment .

i wanna have fun first . though i know i cant make it for sec 5 .

-.-"

gerek siaaaaa yesterday .

i shall update pictures later .

cause i think , its the gerek start of the month .

went to jamming with Ayie , Fiqq , Fiee , Syawal , Dorkee & Hamie .

and off we hit to townnnnnnnnnn !

meet yasmin & fizaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (:

went heeren to get my stuffs (headbands and wristbands)

& walked around town kecoh-kecoh .

headed to esplanade to chill-chill .

and off to Jalan Kayu .

follow keling take her pay . then eat and head home .

109 last bus kene tinggal .

so Fiqq & Fiee send me home .

THANKS (:

HEY FCUKER.

I'VE YET TO SETTLE WITH YOU.

IT JUST FEELS TERRIBLE TO SEE YOU MAKE ME&FRIENDS LIFE MISERABLE.

I'LL MAKE YOURS MUC MORE TERRIBLE ONE DAY.

HEY COME ON , GET LOST.

IM NO MORE YOURS.

THREFORE, THANKS FOR SPOILING MY DAY.

BUT IM SORRY , ITS FOR AWILE ONLY.

IM LUCKY ENOUGH CAUSE I'VE FRIENDS WHO CARE MORE BOUT ME.

UNLIKE YOU.

YOU CAN SAY BAD WORDS WHILE WALKING AWAY .

I FREAKING DONT CARE!

CAUSE I KNOW , YOU SUCKS & JUST JEALOUS !

YOU DONT EVEN GET THE WHOLE THING AND WANNA START A FIGHT FOR NO RESON .

JUST VERY VERY VERY LAME OKAEY ?

SHOOOOOOOOH & GET A LIFE , ASS !

I WANNA THANK MY FRIENDS WHO WERE THERE FOR ME .

CAUSE I THINK YOU PEOPLE ARE THE BEST !

THE GREATEST GIFT I GOT .

THANKS ! SAYANG KORANG LIKE A LOT EHHHHH !

cause i know , im still upset now .
& shall declare my life's sucha failure .
);

go on Lisha.

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-30T18:25:00.000+08:00

Chalet was a blast ~

Day one ;
after work , headed off to chalet with A , Sheila & Ctee .
then met the rest . we kecoh-kecoh .
went to Changi Village for times to get foodstuff .
we went riding bikes , exchange with Hadi's LG phone .
the funny part was , si dorkee confident sngt !
aying whose last is anak kambing ~
lastlast , dier yg anak kambing ~
watch pocong two , after that the tv just died a moment .
then off to OCH . get back to chalet .
& i eventually fell asleep .

Day two ;
woke up early .
get ready headed off to Bugis , meet Nanaa & Era cause it was her birthday .
bought presents & stuffs and headed off back to chalet .
something happen but yeah , everything went fine .
then headed to OCH again .
i was kinda brave for once .
i really saw many things there . like really alot .
head to Changi Village to get food cause i swear i was hungry .
then off to Chalet , then i slept while watching transformers halfway .

Day three ;
woke up early .
then check out stuff and headed to A's house for Khairul birthday .
then headed home . kecoh sak .

i slept like a pig for the whole of yesterday .
was off day uhs actually .
then at night .
had a msn conference .
with DorkeeBby , Fiqq , A , and idk uhs .
soooooooooooooooooooooo ,
Fiqq just scare me to hell over something .
sumpah siaaa Fiqq , i cried !
fcuking scared siol !
but yeah , Lisha is fine nowwwwwwwwwww ~

ohhhhh fcukkkkkkk ,
i almost got myself a camera at the exhibition !
but mum replied late , so ended up , im working & i've got no time .
so , i shall save $350 of my pay this month & next month .
andddddddddd , A's friend will get me a dslr camera at $700 only ! wheeeee ~
no more phones , dream on bout phones Lishaaaa =/

well okaey , i miss school like alot .
since im grounded for fcuk now ~
only A can like fetch me to & fro to work .
what the fcukkkkk .
i should be thankful actually .
tomorrow marks the first of DECEMBER !
im going Scotland sooooon , and JB !
Fiqq's birthday & countdown babeeeeee ~

2008-11-26T16:12:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

i've got stuffs to tell before i go really on Hiatus .
please dont text my phone .

HAPPY + ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO THE FOLLOWING ;

DORKEE BABY !
KHAIRUL !
ADEQ ERA !
AMAN !

(:

enough , im on Hiatus .
taking care friends ~

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-25T18:00:00.001+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

im workinggggg , im workinggggggg ~
im going Singapore Flyers sooooon-neh .
mummy's going toooooo ;D
i cannot wait , cannot wait !
i've got free tickets to Singapore Flyers & Wild Wild Wet !
im sooooo sooooooo gonna go ! :D

deardear mummy , thank you for allowing me off to chalet (:
i love you ! have fun Thurs at Singapore Flyer !

to my dearest DorkeeBby !
i shall therefore wish you a Happy Advanced Birthdayyyyyy !
& dearest AdeqEra ,
happy birthday ! u better work hard for secondary !

also not to forget ,
SyazBby ,
GET WELL SOOOOOON-NEH !
will catch up with you soon yeah ?

alrights , im going on HIATUS for now .
shall be back once everything is going on smoothly .
life aint easy for me now .
therefore , i still have to move on !
(:

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

WOOOOOOOOOOTS ,
im taking the Singapore Flyer ~
gerekkkkkkkkkkk ahhhhh ~
Syazwani takmo jealous eh ! da dapat notebook nEbO sudah !
(WAHAHAHAHAH)

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-22T18:40:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

Lisha at work , and i just saw a kid drown in the pool .
he's safe don't worry .
take one step at a time !
Lisha's doing fine here , only that i think my life's a failure .
:D

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU

HELLO !
im super stress here at work .
i need entertainment .
thanks for those cheer ups msges !
(:

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-11-21T07:19:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

im all down now , im disappointed , im sad , im angry .
im never a happy kid .

i felt like quiting after all this happening .
nEbO friends , im sorry for everything that has already happen .
i hope you people would at least look me up .
dont go missing .

my life sucks , what about yours ?
im super fcuking pathetic stress !
i always have a dream of my life is a failure .
sometimes i think what my life is about .
and the answer is , my life's a failure .
i just need entertainment now .
i want my pretty life back !

i shall thank Sunshine(s) for trying to make me smile .
though im still crying , dreaming , not sleeping .
and again , you people are the best , not forgetting the rest .
i really need you people , dont leave me yet .

date checked ; its a month to result .
its just scaring me cause i think it'll be a failure .

im making my blog private soon-neh !
or maybe closing my blog .

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-10-31T15:09:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

i miss those time i ended up at esplanade/town . hanging out with friends and shopping like mad . i want to go there again but im busy with work . work is like FCUK sak . making my schedule freaking tight , 6 days work , its like a full time job sakkkk . grrrrrrrrrr .

alright , im lazy to post longlong . getting ready to meet Nikie & Syazwi to go and get camp stuff . andand , im just happy cause they really take care of me ;DD

FCUK & get lost to the SORE LOSER at Dorkee's blog ehh ~

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-10-30T15:34:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

all i gotta say , i miss alot of people .

like really alot , especially classmates !

and of course my GerekFams/bestf/workClans .

meet up soon yeah ~

GOODBYE YOU !

2008-10-29T16:17:00.000+08:00

DEAR YOU ,

tonight dinner date with girlfriends .

DORKEEbby . FIZAbby . SHAIRAHbby .

GOODBYE YOU !